On songs about growing up by elliotcountscrows, literature
Literature
On songs about growing up
Every time something is added,
something else is taken away
until nothing I now own was originally mine
And every thought, or feeling
has been borrowed, swapped, or stolen
And every memory is only badly placed words
inked onto scraps of paper
that run under the spill of my tears,
because their place within my blood vessels
and neurotransmitters has been altered
by the memory of something else;
pushed aside, forced into corners
and moulded to shapes they don't fit,
bound by keys snapped in half by ironmongers
whose only speciality is fitting locks.
Days like these drag out for so long
that you only wish you could put an end to all days,
just to end days like these.
Days when every minute is an hour,
and the metronomic ticking of the clock
burns every second into your brain
as though it is to be remembered,
until you are waiting for the next and
cannot sleep through counting
out each second, as though it is something
to be endured.
Days like these, you cannot move
for having exhausted every limb, and you only
wish that you could fathom more to think about,
because you have exhausted every topic,
and every repeat leaves you scratching
at the inside of your he
Waking The Living by elliotcountscrows, literature
Literature
Waking The Living
There is a dead man who sleeps in my bed
and watches with unseeing eyes whilst I dream of other men.
His sucher-shut lids don't cast light me now,
but burn through my own as though they are light itself.
There is a dead man who steals my shoes
and follows me down roads he has never walked.
If I take the train, he'll sit beside me
and I stumble as he stubs my toes, kicks my ankles, trips me up.
His muted voice is flat, monosyllabic, repeats rhythmically the same words
and his dead stare is unyielding, holding me in his eyes.
His nerves and neurotransmitters can't spark to process thought,
but occupy mine as though they are my own.
His arm
More A Curse Than A Blessing by elliotcountscrows, literature
Literature
More A Curse Than A Blessing
Some days you feel as though you want the world, others just a six-foot plot to die in. Some days you feel so capable of conquering it all, the next day you quit your job and drop out of college because you stumbled into some open grave and got stuck there a couple hours. You were so close to the center of the planet that you were only looking upward. You lost your footing and ended up falling off the edge.
So you're sitting in an old friend's uni apartment. They're all drinking and laughing, because that's what they do. You should be doing the same, but you're sitting in the corner wishing you were dead because it seems like the only viable
Concrete crumbles, weeds grow through cracks,
Creeping up under our feet like fingers, hopelessly
Grasping at our ankles from their hold below the ground.
We can't see them, but we know they are there.
They are lifeless, lie lifeless, behind the closed doors of each tomb
Either side of me, but I can't see them.
I step lightly when I walk; all is quiet here. Footsteps resound,
Echo off of stone walls that jut side by side,
Standing ominous and overbearing, foreboding,
Old crooked teeth in an old man's graveyard smile.
All is quiet here. The only voice is the wind's,
Whistling a hymn, or a love song; a eulogy
For some forgotten sou